What I would love to have right now is a time machine just to see what my future holds. Not one to change the past or even the future. Just to make sure I'm doing what's right. I'm so tired of guessing and hoping that something works out. I have two degrees and I really don't want to go back to school to get another degree that won't help me get a job. One of my degrees really wouldn't have helped me unless I already knew someone in that field. The other one would have helped me much better if there would have been a job opening in that field and yet i don't know what works out anymore. I want to produce a life for my child. I just don't want to feel like a failure in my child's eyes. My child keeps asking me when they will have a sister or brother. I just wish one part of my life would work out. Either love life, work life, or being able to do something that is good.